It’s been a while…

I highly encourage blogging, yet here is sit not blogging in quite some time. No real reason why, but not real topic to talk about either. 

So today, I am looking for inner balance and change.  I recently read that 12 minutes of prayer a day can change the makeup of your brain.  You can read about it here

I don’t necessarily agree with Olsteen often, but I do know I can feel a physical change when I pray or when I know someone is praying specifically for me. Do you?  

Have any of you read the Proverbs 31 books or Power of a praying woman?  Thoughts on those?  


I don’t have a lot to add here, but I would love to hear your stories of how praying for yourself specifically has changed you and what all you studied while doing that. 

Obedience 

“Be still, be still, be still, be still, be still…” Every time I turn around I’m hearing, “Jessica, Be Still!”

It has been constantly running through my head for months. Anyone who knows me knows I am NOT a still person. I don’t just idly sit. I don’t stay in one place. My mind is always in motion. I’m always connecting this person to that, thinking I can do this, if I can’t do it myself who can I get to do it?  


Truth is, I  am scared to be still. I am scared to slow down?  Why?  Does it show weakness?  Will I become aware of the things I have been avoiding?  Why does stillness have a negative connotation with me?  

I have been going to a Bible study for months. I have heard “be still” almost every single week and every single week I think I’m gonna do it!  Every week I hear every single noise that church has, every single creak, every single breath you hear I hear it magnified…


But let’s get down to brass tax…

The truth is God I hear you. BUT, I have not been obedient to Your push.  You Why? What am I afraid of? I KNOW I really should obey, listen and be still!  I am aware that the only time I am still is at reflexology. My mind prays. I allow the quiet to engulf me, BUT this is only if I go alone, my husband is home with the kids and they are sleeping. Any other time it’s still a mind race. 

Share with me how you turn off the noise, stop what you are doing and how you become still. How do you take the time you deserve, shut off your mind and hear God?  It’s so much easier said than done!  

Last costumes 

I saw a blog with the cutest last minute costumes for moms to be!  Thought I would share here


Also, we had to have story books characters last week for school and I wanted something cheap and easy. My daughter loves the book Library Mouse so that’s the book she chose. It was super easy and last minute. 


One of the boys took a counting Starwars book. 

And then there is a football player. Who read a football chapter books


What are your quick and easy costume ideas for the mom out there that has had a tough couple weeks and didn’t get to buy a costume yet?  

Moms Unite 

Did you know October is Eczema Awareness month ?  It’s hard. It’s the same month as Breast Cancer Awareness. Both are horrible awful issues affecting lots and lots of people. 


Sadly, I think all other awareness issues get overtaken by the pink ribbons and funds raising for a “cure.”

Don’t get me wrong I totally think it’s important and I am not discounting the severity of the that disease in any way, BUT I do know eczema deserves more research and recognition. It deserves more awareness, more support for moms of children who suffer from eczema. It should be information at your finger tips about causes, treatments and the emotional gunk that comes from the balancing act that is eczema. 


This post is a lot of rambling, but I know I am not the only eczema mom that felt alone in our battle. I know I am not the only one that felt like it was lotion after lotion, steroid after steroid, doctor visit after visit and like I am on a hamster wheel never getting off.  


I guess I want to make other moms like me know:

You aren’t alone…I am here

There are treatments that will work…find your windex. 

Ours is CLn bodywash
You need some one to cry, vent or just talk to? Eczema mom understands. 

And you know what it doesn’t make you a bad mom to not know the cure yet, be frustrated, not want to do the WHOLE bedtime skin routine or back the bag of all the extra stuff you need to get through the day.


It’s ok it makes you human and every once and a while gosh darn it we can cry cause we are frustrated. 

Eczema may control your child’s skin and it probably feels like it controls your life…it sure did mine for a while, but just take a moment to share your story with me, facebook, twitter or the world and see how many other people will stand united and say “Eczema stinks!”  We deserve a bigger voice and today it starts here!  

We don’t need some Ribbon or tons of money to help find a cure. All it takes is a small village to change the world. Let’s support moms and their kids! And share what has helped calm the eczema monster in your life. 

From the Outside In (part 1)

You know I have read a lot about gut health and healing from the inside out, but our story is quite different. 


As you know, Rahrah battled skin problems the first 2.5 years of her life. What I haven’t shared is the battle was much much more than the eczema. 

Did you know she was seen for SEVERE reflux and had a gastro specialist because even at 18 months she wasn’t eating table foods and was aspirating her milk and baby foods? 

Did you know she was seeing a pulminologist and struggled with breathing?  We once moved her room upstairs and she wheezed so bad during her nap my husband had to take down her furniture and move her back to a room with wood floors?  How about that she had a bronchoscope and we were told eventually she will have to have her throat stretched because she has a narrowing in her airways they think was cause by her being intubated at birth?  


We were always worried about her and what was next. The skin was the icing on the cake. We were seeing doctors for our doctors. We were bleeding Co-pays!  The catalyst was her skin infection. 

Well maybe not the catalyst, but the ball started rolling after her inpatient stay for staph on her leg.   She was on a 30 day round of the most potent meds you can put in a 2 year old body and 5 topical steroids at once. She was diagnosed with a severe ear infection while on the meds. THAT SHOULD NOT HAPPEN!!!! 

We started having her tested for auto-immune disease…23 vials of blood from a baby…that  came back inconclusive. So here we were once again scratching our heads. 


We ended up back in the ER for staph on a toe. I fully expected them to possibly amputate her toe. We had to remove her earrings as eczema had basically eaten her ear lobes. 

Finally, after this visit we were given the go ahead to see a pediatric dermatologist. We got in and found a plan. We did that plan which included oral steroids, topical steroids and about a 45 minute a night skin prep…


Our bed time was not even pleasant as this chart looks nothing like our night.  Cross all that sweet routine out. And write go potty and prep skin…put topical meds in specific spots based on thickness, cover with aquaphor, put pjs on and put to bed. Nothing sweet, bath time fun didn’t exist. It was sheer exhaustion and worry creating our next steps. Just basic survival for what was our current situation. 
Our night continued like this: Wake up in middle of night. Do ritual again and change Jammies as wounds wept on the ones she was wearing and then dried,  stuck, reopening wounds. 

After 2 weeks of the craziness we had a follow up with the dermatologist and he had a new option…

Options were GREAT. I was willing to try ANYTHING! 

Part 2 coming tomorrow!  

Change 

I’ve always been kind of a quieter, less outgoing, keep to myself, only if you are in my bubble kind of girl.  I was a mom, wife, daughter, aunt and sister. Which honestly, with kids CRAZY close together didn’t leave much energy for anything else. 

About year ago things started changing in my life. I was attending networking groups, growing my business and just generally stepping out of my comfort zone. For the 7 years prior I had been a stay at home mom and dabbler. I sold Scentsy, Advocare, crafted and just did what I could to make extra shopping money. And I guess if my dad were here he would say I looked for “what’s next.”

Looking back, I was searching for more!  I was looking for passion, excitement, change and purpose. And I had no idea. 

I didn’t know that I had become  complacent. Not unhappy or bored, but not excited and driven either. More like a hamster on his wheel…definitely not bad because I was a mom and I was doing everything I had wanted to do!  But something was missing in my day to day. 

Our family started attending a local church in January and we jumped all in. Our feet didn’t just get wet. It was our WHOLE body!  

Our kids were involved and I started to volunteer with the babies on Sunday. We went to some prayer meetings and every time we showed up it was us and the leaders of the church.  I went to a group called Brave, even when I told my mother in law months before I wasn’t Brave enough to go!  (Now, I am helping to keep that group growing). 


My business took off and it flourished. I was able to enjoy my kids, make money, meet people and start working on me. 

 to last week…I met with our Pastor and shared some ideas and thoughts that have been weighing heavy on me. 

I shared our “why” of how come we picked this church!  And we talked about direction. 

Check out how God has been working in me for today!  You can also hear what we are going to be up to and what I am super excited to be involved with. (It’s not super clear cause it was taken pretty far away and on an iPhone). But I am very excited about the future of our church. 


I can’t wait to see where we reach people. I can’t wait to see my church family grow and I cannot wait to see the new friends I am going to continue to be blessed with. The ones I have already made are making such a strong impact!  

I am not one that likes public speaking.  So, I was very nervous, but I survived. And I am now seeing why God started changing me.  And I can’t wait to see how I continue to change and put myself out there to share His word and how He has had a hand in my life all along, even when I might not have been living for my intended purpose. 


Have you ever started changing and not known why?  It’s exciting!  Keep your chin up. Open your mind to stepping WAY outside your comfort zone. You will be blessed in a way you could never imagine. 

Today, my heart is fuller, my family happier and my future is secure as I know my God has great plans for me!  

I dont know what all He is working on and I often wonder what He has in store for me, but I know it’s gonna be GOOD!